One of the key
components to success is pretty simple. Whether you're looking for
power, wisdom, or just being happy it all involves one basic thing to
hold together the core of your work. Be yourself.
We often talk about
the admonition to “Know thyself” and it's pretty meaningful. By
digging deep into exploring who we are and where we come from, and
how we've gotten where we are, we can understand where we're going,
and how to get there. We can understand deeper mysteries about
ourselves, the world, and our place in it as well.
But if we understand
these things and we don't make a point to live honestly as who we are
then we're throwing that knowledge away. If we understand who we are,
and what will make us happy, and how we can get what can make us
happy, why should we let other influences tell us to be someone other
than the person who can go out and get that happiness?
We do though, we
give up on being ourselves pretty easily.
Sometimes it's just
that we don't trust or understand who we are and how being who we are
will work out well for us. Sometimes it's because we're afraid of who
we are or because we think we want to be something else. Often it's
because of what we think other people will think.
A friend recently
told me that he's focusing on developing himself. He wants to be able
to assess anyone he meets, beguile them with his charm, and get them
to do whatever he wants, consistently. Now, this might not seem like
something to be happy with, but it's who he is. When I first met him
it was pretty obvious that that was the person he is. At the time he
kept trying to describe his behaviors in less extreme ways. He tried
to whitewash his motivations, and tried to downplay his desires. As a
result he was much less effective. It was like he was constantly
walking into a fight with his hands tied behind his back. We might
not be thrilled with the goal he has realized is his, but we should
be happy he's pursuing his own nature.
When we work with
our Holy Guardian Angel that's part of what we're working towards,
knowing our natures, knowing our will, and becoming more earnestly
the person we are. The more we work against being that person the
less we're able to work in conjunction with our angel.
From a Thelemic
perspective the Angel is the truest portion of ourselves, the divine
element which originates us. Rejecting who we are and trying to be
someone other than who we are is therefore rejecting the Angel. From
a Jewish or Christian perspective the Holy Guardian Angel is the
emissary of divine grace. That divine source is the same source that
made us with our particular nature. Therefore rejecting who we are
and trying to be someone else is rejecting the gift that divine grace
specifically gave each of us: our individual selves.
However we view it
theologically speaking, rejecting the self is connected to rejecting
the angel. This becomes important from a magical perspective as the
angel serves many purposes. Your Holy Guardian Angel is a a guide and
teacher, but it is also a source of power and authority. Cultivating
our connection to it is part of our task from day one as magicians.
Rejecting ourselves, and our natures, rejecting the angel is the
erosion of our connection to that power and authority.
There was a point,
before I pursued Knowledge and Conversation, where I had engaged in a
plan to be a person more amenable to someone I cared about a great
deal. While I very much believe in charity, love and human dignity,
my nature is also one which is pretty angry and wrathful. I'm a good
example of embracing both poles but not of the nice balanced middle
of the road. I tried to convince people I'd turned over a new leaf
and was going to be all sunshine and smiles. No one really believed
me but I was trying to make it seem real. During this time I asked my
angel about teaching me some stuff. His answer was essentially, “when
you pull your head out of your ass and just be yourself.”
Our angels know
what's up. They want us to grow that connection because their purpose
is to carry us into the throne room and expose us to the Truth of the
universe, and along the way, to make sure we create the world we were
born to build. None of that can happen unless we've committed to that
connection, unless we embrace the Truth of our being and live it.
Sometimes who we are
isn't the easiest thing. Sometimes it presents a road that has
difficulties, trials, heart ache, even abuse. People in extreme
situations of denying themselves usually say though that the worst
part isn't what they suffer, it's feeling like they can't openly be
who they are. For most people it's not even for the mystical or
magical success that we pave the road for by embracing and living as
ourselves, it's just about feeling happy and safe in your own skin.
That's important too. Despite the struggles and difficulties, when we
find a way to be ourselves and to succeed in whatever it is we're
drawn to be, that's where we'll find our happiness. As we begin to
fall into that groove, and the world moves with us it becomes a lot
easier to focus on the rest of the work and to compound our success.
So if you want
power, wisdom, success, and happiness, if you want to be a truly
successful magician, don't forget that simple but important key: be
yourself.
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